Motherhood ... It's a doozy, isn't it? September 13 2018

Hi Mothers, let's chat and break this down. Who can agree with me that motherhood is a doozy? I mean, it's the most rewarding experience ever and it's truly such a blessing but it can also be so overwhelming and stressful and emotional. Today was one of those days for me. I was feeling overwhelmed with my own personal educational tasks that I am working on and then Mama Life just slapped me in the face and made the stress turn into guilt, sadness and just plane ugh! My 8 year old has been very challenging lately, I don't know any other way to put it but he's my oldest so I am learning this motherhood thing through him and as he gets older it's a new phase I have never experienced. Anyways, today I got a lot of 'back talk' and a lot of 'no's' and rolling of the eyes and huffs and puffs and basically I am going to blow your motherhood house down mama. And it's broke me, it made me just grumble. The thoughts of what did I do wrong? What did I not do? Did I do the right thing? Did I not give him enough attention. I just felt lost. Why could my own child, my best friend, the one who made me a mommy not respect me and say such hurtful things. My point here is that after this really rough day, lots of tears, lots of emotions, lots of yelling and arguing and feeling like CRAP, we both broke down and go down to some of the core of these issues. The moments we realize that motherhood is truly amazing and having kids is such a blessing and sometimes you have to hit that low to bounce back up. So I say to you, is motherhood a doozy? Yes, it is. Because it's amazing but it's also the most challenging thing I have ever done. It is hard to BALANCE motherhood, work, school and everything and give three little busy boys 100% attention 24/7. I was an only child I got all the attention and I was very independent. My kids want my attention 24/7 and need me, and want me around and want me to pick them up from school and want solo dates. And, I just feel like I am just never doing enough. But, when he cried and said I miss when it was just you and me and I want attention and of course I felt bad but I also, was so glad he communicated to me what he needed from me and how I can try to fix it. I don't know it's never easy and motherhood feels like I am in a circus marathon, it's chaotic, it's beautiful and it's a blessing. So ... moms Motherhood is a doozy and that is ok. We got this!! Never give up. Learn from your failures and grow but we are enough and we do it all and we have to give ourselves credit. amen.